Well, so far things are going alright. I'm exhausted, and I've definitely had some food aversions. Otherwise, things feel pretty unchanged physically.
OCD has decided to play with my head some more. I suppose I should have expected it, and I didn't do a great job of warding it off. I broke down and began searching online for stories of women being pregnant on antidepressants. Big Big Big mistake. I guess that whole "compulsions only aggravate anxiety" thing is true. I ended up calling my psychiatrist and leaving her a message saying I was considering reducing my dose and that I wasn't feeling comfortable with the idea of being on medication now.
I wasn't able to answer when she called me back, but she left me a message. She said she really thought about it, and that she preferred I stay on the same dose for several reasons. She said she thinks that my fears are OCD fears and that reducing may increase them. She also said that several of her patients have reduced dose during pregnancy and ended up relapsing and requiring a higher dose than they were on before to treat the relapse. We are set to talk tomorrow evening to have a real conversation about this.
It is so scary. I just want to do everything right. I suppose I want to have the perfect pregnancy and the perfect outcome. I keep trying to remind myself that there is no such thing as the perfect pregnancy, but, I'm not sure it's helping.
At least there is no morning sickness...
It's natural to have fears during pregnancy, I think. You are so right about the effects of giving in to OCD obsessions/compulsions--it just makes them worse. I'm glad your doctor is working with you closely--it sounds like she is on top of things. I hope your meeting with her helps. Hang in there, one day at a time! Here's a cyber hug for you--{hug}
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're struggling right now. I'm glad that you have no morning sickness, though.
ReplyDeleteIt seems like you have a great doc. I hope your conversation with your doc went well.
Pregnancy is such a time of uncertainty. Even women who don't have anxiety disorders experience anxiety during pregnancy. Your concerns are normal.
You're right - there is no perfect pregnancy. Thankfully, you don't need a perfect pregnancy to have a healthy baby. I even fell twice during my pregnancy, and my baby ended up being just fine.
Hang in there. : )
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